ROSALÍA DE CASTRO: I Don’t Know What It Is …

(translated from the Spanish of Rosalía de Castro)

I don’t know what it is I seek incessantly
upon the earth and in the air and in the sky;
I don’t know what I seek; but it is something that
I lost, I don’t know when, and cannot find
even when I dream that it pervades,
invisibly, everything I touch and see.
Happiness, I shall never find, not again,
upon the earth or in the air or in the sky,
even when I know that you exist,
that you are not some empty dream!

I too seek and have always sought something I knew once, though I don’t know when or where: a feeling of belonging. I have never really felt I belonged in this body in this world at this time in history.